you hold yourself together
tightly like you used to clutch
your security blanket
you rationalize all day
and give yourself the logic talk

then in the moment
it crumbles, it falls
like Humpty Dumpty
and you can’t put it back


I woke up full of regret
because I’d screamed
during family game night
about how my sister
couldn’t use the extra dice
I accidentally rolled
in her move to win the game
but nobody agreed with me
or even rose to the challenge
of arguing with me
and I was left ashamed
for raising my voice,
for caring too much,
and when I woke up
I realized last night
was Wednesday
and I must have been dreaming
but what does that indicate
about me that I perceive
myself that way?